The issue of body fat is something I've been struggling with for some time now. Off and on for years I've fought not only with varying ideas of how I should look, but my own preconceptions about how much body fat I actually have. In fact I once went to the doctor asking for help accessing my body fat.
For the past decade I've been under the impression that all my carb cravings were a result of my muscles requiring the extra energy. As I begin to wind down my equine sport therapy practice however I'm learning a lot more about my relationship to food. Thankfully our experiences on Haida Gwaii have helped both
This sense of inner peace however was fleeting and by the time reality was rearing it's ugly head again my stress level spiked and so did my appetite, this time with a vengeance. The more I tried to control these horrible hunger demons, the more stressed out I got and the more stressed out I got the hungrier I got. Then started the tears, and the horrible behavior, in fact I'm sure I owe a waitress at Denny's in Terrace an apology for my horrible spoiled brat behavior.
At first the more I said no to food the more I acted out. I told myself it's okay just relax, you're not hungry you're stressed. This was a difficult concept to grasp at first because when I over work and under eat I can pack on the pounds too. Learning to find a quiet place within myself has helped me listen to what my body is really trying to tell me.
I’ve known now for two weeks what my imbalance is and although the scale says I may have lost 1lb , I find my tummy looking flatter in the mirror a little more every day. If nothing else learning to reduce stress by other means and not needing to rely on food to get through life emotional will bring many rewards even if the weight loss comes at a slow trickle.
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